The wrong life changing decisions you made (like marrying the wrong person)
The useless degree you got in university
Or not getting a degree at all (because you dropped out to pursue a career in music)
For the times you didn’t say anything until it was too late
For the times you said the wrong things (and ruined people’s lives)
For the chances you let slip by
For all the right people you let down
For never loving your family enough
For running away ever so often
For not planning for your present
For losing your virginity to the wrong person
For being born in the wrong family (believe me, it’s not your fault Bill Gates ain’t your dad)
Your Present
For living a lie
For being in the wrong relationship (and you know it)
For not reading as much as you ought to
For giving up so easily when you know you shouldn’t
For neglecting your health
For not loving your family enough (we’re still on this)
For settling for less (because you are so tired of trying and getting let down)
For cheating on the love of your life
For spending recklessly
For investing wrongly (MMM)
For failing out of Medicine
Your Future
For all the right people you’ll walk out on
For all the chances you’ll throw away (because you’ll still be scared)
For all the wrong things you’ll say
For still not loving your family
For not getting help when you needed it until it
For not taking today seriously
I am tired of blaming and hating myself and I know you are too. We can go on and keep regretting, binging on coke (or cigarettes, alcohol – whatever your preference is) in one pity party after the other, but that’s just too depressing and of no profit. Some things are hard to let go of, really hard. I have my own demons that keep me up at night and I know you have yours too. But for the sake of being better than we are now, please let’s just forgive ourselves. We might not forget now, but it’s all a step towards healing. And that is what matters – healing.
